i've always been the type of person that helps other people, be it finanically, emotionally, spiritually, etc... and in doing that, being the type of person that likes to help, every once in a while you're going to run into a little friction... sometimes i guess, people don't really won't your help, as they figure they can handle it by theirselves. some things were meant to be handled alone, while other things aren't. there are some things that are bigger than us... i do what i do b/c it's my nature - to help people where and when i can.
in trying to help someone that i care about, i've been scolded and chatised... i've been sat down and had a good talking to... a lyrical spanking...
by me writing what i did, do you all think that i was trying to exploit somebodies feelings, or was i trying to help somebody overcome something? do you all appreciate what i tried to do? my words weren't appreciated by their intended audience... instead of provoking feelings of warmth, appreciation, and gratitude, they were viewed as me violating somebody, although none of you know who those words were meant for.
i tried to help someone out... guess i shouldn't try to help people out, and just let them deal with stuff on their own... instead of trying to steer something in the right direction, i'll just let it go wherever...
sometimes we just can't win for losing...
peace
Monday
Thursday
The Spirit of Fear
Because of the day and times we live in, people are experiencing fear. Fear is the opposite of Faith, and fear is very contagious. At all cost God tells us to keep fear out!!!! How do we keep fear out? How does fear get into our lives? In the book of Job, he said that the very thing he feared came upon him. Now that is deep, let's see why. When you talk about the things you fear it will come to pass in your life.
Some people have a fear of their spouses cheating on them. Their spouse may not even be cheating or thinking about it, but because they, the one who feared it, thought it, all of a sudden it begins to manifest itself. I think you get the point? God has not given us the Spirit of Fear, but many of us are clinging to it. Why cling to something that God did not give you? Fear is a spirit like hate, pride, and jealousy. God said that the fearful will be judged. Being fearful is a sign that we do not trust God, because when we trust God there is an inner peace that we have on the inside. Remember that real peace comes from God, and from Him alone. Trust me, Satan will try and work up a good taste to make you think you can get peace elsewhere; shooting dope, taking tranqualizers, and going to psychics does not replace real peace! Peace is full submission to God, because when He is in our lives all other things must fall into place, He will have it no other way.
God gives us a "will" to choose from. We are free agents, if He didn't give us "will", we would be robots. It's better to have someone love you because they want to on their own, not because you made them love you. The Word says "God has not given us the spirit of Fear, but of love, power, and a sound mind" Did you hear that? God has already given us a sound mind all we have to do is agree with Him. A sound mind keeps "Fear" out..
When Fear knocked on the door he knocked three times, and was ready to devour Faith, but Faith in all his might and glory answered the door. Faith was very demanding, but he was strong and he stood his ground. Fear on the other hand tried to outwit Faith, but he got tired and had no real power, and began to tremble. Fear lost that day and he loses all the time.
If you are fearful of things in your life deal with them right away. They can be very small, but grow to a point where it is too big to deal with. Give them to God, whatever they are, nothing is to small or too big for God. Giving it to God says you trust Him, and therefore He will move on your behalf. The best way to do this is to speak it out of your mouth, CONFESS IT BEFORE GOD! God listens to every thing and all things. If God can see your thought life, then He can surely hear you when you confess for his help out of your mouth. Faith is awesome, because once you learn to live by it, your life will never be the same. Faith moves before it sees, but with Wisdom. God said "without Faith we cannot please him...", so that lets us know right there that we better have it. Faith always works in the "supernatural", because we cannot see faith. Faith reaches into the "Spirit Realm", and brings out what God has given to us. A little child uses faith all the time, because he believes in the untangible. Adults, as we get older, we use "Sense Knowledge" and we begin to reason by what we see instead of what God has told us. Faith is to be our eyes in the "Spirit Realm", and we have to practice at using it, the benefits are quite rewarding!
Remember that fear is a choice, and that you don't have to be fearful. If God is for us who can be against us?
Some people have a fear of their spouses cheating on them. Their spouse may not even be cheating or thinking about it, but because they, the one who feared it, thought it, all of a sudden it begins to manifest itself. I think you get the point? God has not given us the Spirit of Fear, but many of us are clinging to it. Why cling to something that God did not give you? Fear is a spirit like hate, pride, and jealousy. God said that the fearful will be judged. Being fearful is a sign that we do not trust God, because when we trust God there is an inner peace that we have on the inside. Remember that real peace comes from God, and from Him alone. Trust me, Satan will try and work up a good taste to make you think you can get peace elsewhere; shooting dope, taking tranqualizers, and going to psychics does not replace real peace! Peace is full submission to God, because when He is in our lives all other things must fall into place, He will have it no other way.
God gives us a "will" to choose from. We are free agents, if He didn't give us "will", we would be robots. It's better to have someone love you because they want to on their own, not because you made them love you. The Word says "God has not given us the spirit of Fear, but of love, power, and a sound mind" Did you hear that? God has already given us a sound mind all we have to do is agree with Him. A sound mind keeps "Fear" out..
When Fear knocked on the door he knocked three times, and was ready to devour Faith, but Faith in all his might and glory answered the door. Faith was very demanding, but he was strong and he stood his ground. Fear on the other hand tried to outwit Faith, but he got tired and had no real power, and began to tremble. Fear lost that day and he loses all the time.
If you are fearful of things in your life deal with them right away. They can be very small, but grow to a point where it is too big to deal with. Give them to God, whatever they are, nothing is to small or too big for God. Giving it to God says you trust Him, and therefore He will move on your behalf. The best way to do this is to speak it out of your mouth, CONFESS IT BEFORE GOD! God listens to every thing and all things. If God can see your thought life, then He can surely hear you when you confess for his help out of your mouth. Faith is awesome, because once you learn to live by it, your life will never be the same. Faith moves before it sees, but with Wisdom. God said "without Faith we cannot please him...", so that lets us know right there that we better have it. Faith always works in the "supernatural", because we cannot see faith. Faith reaches into the "Spirit Realm", and brings out what God has given to us. A little child uses faith all the time, because he believes in the untangible. Adults, as we get older, we use "Sense Knowledge" and we begin to reason by what we see instead of what God has told us. Faith is to be our eyes in the "Spirit Realm", and we have to practice at using it, the benefits are quite rewarding!
Remember that fear is a choice, and that you don't have to be fearful. If God is for us who can be against us?
Monday
Welcome To The Terrordome
I got so much trouble on my mind
I refuse to lose
Here's your ticket
Hear the drummer get wicked
The crew to you to push the back to Black
Attack so I sat and japped
Then slapped the Mac
Now I'm ready to mike it
(You know I like it) huh
Hear my favoritism roll "Oh"
Never be a brother like to go solo
Lazer anastasia maze ya
Ways to blaze your brain and train ya
The way I'm livin', forgiven'
What I'm givin' up
X on the flex hit me now
I don't know about later
As for now I know how to avoid the paranoid
Man I've had it up to here
Gear I wear got 'em goin' in fear
Rhetoric said
Read just a bit ago
Not quittin' though
Signed the hard rhymer
Work to keep from gettin' jerked
Changin' some ways
To way back in the better days
Raw metaphysically bold
Never followed a code
Still dropped a load
Never question what I am, God knows
Cause it's comin' from the heart
What I got better get some
(Get on up) hustler of culture
Snakebitten
Been spit in the face
But the rhymes keep fittin'
Respects been givin' how's ya livin'
Now I can't protect a pad off defect
Check the record
An reckon an intentional wreck
Played off as some intellect
Made the call, took the fall
Broke the laws
Not my fault they're fallin' off
Known as fair square
Throughout my years
So I growl at the livin' foul
Black to the bone my home is your home
So welcome to the Terrordome
Subordinate terror
Kickin' off an era
Cold deliverin' pain
My 98 was 87 on a record yo
So now I go Bronco
Crucifixion ain't no fiction
So called chosen frozen
Apology made to who ever pleases
Still they got me like Jesus
I rather sing, bring, think reminisce
'Bout a brother while I'm in sync
Every brother ain't a brother cause a color
Just as well could be undercover
Backstabbed, grabbed a flag
From the back of the lab
Told a Rab get off the rag
Sad to say I got sold down the river
Still some quiver when I deliver
Never to say I never know or had a clue
Word was heard, plus hard on the boulevard
Lies, scandalizin', basin'
Traits of hate who's celebratin' wit satan?
I rope a dope the evil with righteous
Bobbin' and weavin' and let the good get even
C'mon down
And welcome to the Terrordome.
Caught in the race against time
The pit and the pendulum
Check the rhythm and rhymes
While I'm bendin' 'em
Snakes blowin' up the lines of design
Tryin' to blind the science I'm sendin' 'em
How to fight the power
Cannot run and hide
But it shouldn't be suicide
In a game a fool without the rules
Got a hell of a nerve to just criticize
Every brother ain't a brother
Cause a Black hand
Squeezed on Malcom X the man
The shootin' of Huey Newton
From a hand of a Nigger who pulled the trigger
It's weak to speak and blame somebody else
When you destroy yourself
First nothing's worse than a mother's pain
Of a son slain in Bensonhurst
Can't wait for the state to decide the fate
So this jam I dedicate
Places with racist faces
Just an example of one of many cases
The Greek weekend speech I speak
From a lesson learned in Virginia (Beach)
I don't smile in the line of fire
I go wildin'
But it's on bass and drums even violins
Watcha do gitcha head ready
Instead of gettin' physically sweaty
When I get mad
I put it down on a pad
Give ya somethin' that cha never had
controllin'
Fear of high rollin'
God bless your soul and keep livin'
Never allowed, kickin' it loud
Droppin' a bomb
Brain game intellectual Vietnam
Move as a team
Never move alone
But
Welcome to the Terrordome...
I refuse to lose
Here's your ticket
Hear the drummer get wicked
The crew to you to push the back to Black
Attack so I sat and japped
Then slapped the Mac
Now I'm ready to mike it
(You know I like it) huh
Hear my favoritism roll "Oh"
Never be a brother like to go solo
Lazer anastasia maze ya
Ways to blaze your brain and train ya
The way I'm livin', forgiven'
What I'm givin' up
X on the flex hit me now
I don't know about later
As for now I know how to avoid the paranoid
Man I've had it up to here
Gear I wear got 'em goin' in fear
Rhetoric said
Read just a bit ago
Not quittin' though
Signed the hard rhymer
Work to keep from gettin' jerked
Changin' some ways
To way back in the better days
Raw metaphysically bold
Never followed a code
Still dropped a load
Never question what I am, God knows
Cause it's comin' from the heart
What I got better get some
(Get on up) hustler of culture
Snakebitten
Been spit in the face
But the rhymes keep fittin'
Respects been givin' how's ya livin'
Now I can't protect a pad off defect
Check the record
An reckon an intentional wreck
Played off as some intellect
Made the call, took the fall
Broke the laws
Not my fault they're fallin' off
Known as fair square
Throughout my years
So I growl at the livin' foul
Black to the bone my home is your home
So welcome to the Terrordome
Subordinate terror
Kickin' off an era
Cold deliverin' pain
My 98 was 87 on a record yo
So now I go Bronco
Crucifixion ain't no fiction
So called chosen frozen
Apology made to who ever pleases
Still they got me like Jesus
I rather sing, bring, think reminisce
'Bout a brother while I'm in sync
Every brother ain't a brother cause a color
Just as well could be undercover
Backstabbed, grabbed a flag
From the back of the lab
Told a Rab get off the rag
Sad to say I got sold down the river
Still some quiver when I deliver
Never to say I never know or had a clue
Word was heard, plus hard on the boulevard
Lies, scandalizin', basin'
Traits of hate who's celebratin' wit satan?
I rope a dope the evil with righteous
Bobbin' and weavin' and let the good get even
C'mon down
And welcome to the Terrordome.
Caught in the race against time
The pit and the pendulum
Check the rhythm and rhymes
While I'm bendin' 'em
Snakes blowin' up the lines of design
Tryin' to blind the science I'm sendin' 'em
How to fight the power
Cannot run and hide
But it shouldn't be suicide
In a game a fool without the rules
Got a hell of a nerve to just criticize
Every brother ain't a brother
Cause a Black hand
Squeezed on Malcom X the man
The shootin' of Huey Newton
From a hand of a Nigger who pulled the trigger
It's weak to speak and blame somebody else
When you destroy yourself
First nothing's worse than a mother's pain
Of a son slain in Bensonhurst
Can't wait for the state to decide the fate
So this jam I dedicate
Places with racist faces
Just an example of one of many cases
The Greek weekend speech I speak
From a lesson learned in Virginia (Beach)
I don't smile in the line of fire
I go wildin'
But it's on bass and drums even violins
Watcha do gitcha head ready
Instead of gettin' physically sweaty
When I get mad
I put it down on a pad
Give ya somethin' that cha never had
controllin'
Fear of high rollin'
God bless your soul and keep livin'
Never allowed, kickin' it loud
Droppin' a bomb
Brain game intellectual Vietnam
Move as a team
Never move alone
But
Welcome to the Terrordome...
Sunday
Marriage
how do you feel about marriage? i know that there are so of you who are carrying some extreme emotional baggage when it comes to relationships and marriages. there are many of us who are single, and although we say we are happy being single, i don't really believe that for a sec.
people today are getting married for every reason except for love. people are getting married like it's some sort of business deal, a mega merge or something. sista's want brotha's to have this type of hair texture, sista's want brotha's to make this amount of money, or to drive this type of car... brotha's want to be married but are scared b/c they don't want to lose everything that they've worked so hard to get. some brotha's are getting married just to say they are, and to be able to have some "at home pussy" to come to... i don't know, it's all chao's to me.
the institution of marriage is nothng what it's supposed to be! but while visiting this site, i came across so words of wisdom from somebody who married, and who's loving it. read on...
...........................................................
"No matter how much I bitch, whine and complain about my marriage (I can be such a drama queen!) I would rather deal with the 'hard' times and be married then to have 'good' times and be single. I have done the single thing and as much fun as I had at that particular time, I still felt lonely, yanno? And now that I am married I actually feel complete. Not to say that a man is what I need to make me complete, but my hubby certainly compliments me and is my soulmate."
"Everyone is different. I am the type of person that just needs attention from a man. But I was tired of dating and getting it from different men. I wanted my own man and a stable relationship where it was about me and him only, ya feel me? I hated sitting around on a Saturday night wanting some male attention and having to open up my little black book and trying to call some man up in hopes that he would come over and give me some attention or take me out or whatever. Whatever attention I was getting from a man was only temporary. I wanted something permanent, stable and long lasting. I love Luther's Vandross song, "I'd Rather"."
I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
"That song describes how I feel, exactly. I'd rather go through all the ups and downs that I do with my husband than to go back to being single. And I have to admit that the good does indeed outweigh the bad so I am not as miserable as I sometimes claim to be. I just am real emotional and so I love and react hard.. And that trait sometimes makes me out to be a drama queen. *lol*"
"But I don't want to ever give anyone the impression that being married is horrible. Because it is not. It is hard as hell but it is so very rewarding. Especially when you have a good husband that you KNOW loves you with all that he has. I will take that over dealing with some of these 'knuckleheaded fake ass single niggas who only want one thing from me' out in this world any day."
"I know alot of my single friends are so ready to settle down and do the whole family thing. They be crying on my shoulder and actually envy what I have with my spouse. And some of my single friends got it going on! Their own apt, good ass jobs, a nice car, beautiful kids (some are single moms), are physically gorgeous!, could have practically any man they want, etc., but they still don't have the true love they desire. I think as a person gets older it gets to the point that enough is enough and you just get tired of the bullshit. You want to share your life with someone. You want to grow old with someone. You want to have someone reliable who you can depend on besides yourself."
"I would not want to have to go through the dating thing in this day and age. In the beginning it is all cute, exciting and fun but then you start seeing niggas true colors and shit. You sit waiting by the phone wondering if they are gonna call. You got to deal with all the game they trying to come at you with. You are wondering if you are the ONLY one they are trying to get with or if Mary, Jane, and Sue are getting some of that as well. Then you got the whole sex thing. Having to protect yourself. Wondering where this person 'has been'. Dealing with their sexual history, etc. Not to say that I didn't have to deal with my husbands sexual history or that he didn't have to deal with mine, but once the commitment is formed (and you make each other get tested like 3878278273 million times) you get past that and now we are in the comfort zone. I don't have to worry about shit such as that. I can just be totally free with him and not worry about that type of stuff. And that takes a load off me."
"So all I am saying is that being married is not for everyone just like being single is not for everyone. Being single is not for me at all. Ya'll couldn't pay me to go back to being single. Too much headaches involved for me. And all the attention and things I would be getting from 'men' is just too temporary and unreal to me. I need a relationship with some substance. I need stability. I need to feel sincerely and truly loved by my significant other. And I get all that and more from being married. :)"
"I absolutely love being a wife!"
..........................................................
people today are getting married for every reason except for love. people are getting married like it's some sort of business deal, a mega merge or something. sista's want brotha's to have this type of hair texture, sista's want brotha's to make this amount of money, or to drive this type of car... brotha's want to be married but are scared b/c they don't want to lose everything that they've worked so hard to get. some brotha's are getting married just to say they are, and to be able to have some "at home pussy" to come to... i don't know, it's all chao's to me.
the institution of marriage is nothng what it's supposed to be! but while visiting this site, i came across so words of wisdom from somebody who married, and who's loving it. read on...
...........................................................
"No matter how much I bitch, whine and complain about my marriage (I can be such a drama queen!) I would rather deal with the 'hard' times and be married then to have 'good' times and be single. I have done the single thing and as much fun as I had at that particular time, I still felt lonely, yanno? And now that I am married I actually feel complete. Not to say that a man is what I need to make me complete, but my hubby certainly compliments me and is my soulmate."
"Everyone is different. I am the type of person that just needs attention from a man. But I was tired of dating and getting it from different men. I wanted my own man and a stable relationship where it was about me and him only, ya feel me? I hated sitting around on a Saturday night wanting some male attention and having to open up my little black book and trying to call some man up in hopes that he would come over and give me some attention or take me out or whatever. Whatever attention I was getting from a man was only temporary. I wanted something permanent, stable and long lasting. I love Luther's Vandross song, "I'd Rather"."
I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
"That song describes how I feel, exactly. I'd rather go through all the ups and downs that I do with my husband than to go back to being single. And I have to admit that the good does indeed outweigh the bad so I am not as miserable as I sometimes claim to be. I just am real emotional and so I love and react hard.. And that trait sometimes makes me out to be a drama queen. *lol*"
"But I don't want to ever give anyone the impression that being married is horrible. Because it is not. It is hard as hell but it is so very rewarding. Especially when you have a good husband that you KNOW loves you with all that he has. I will take that over dealing with some of these 'knuckleheaded fake ass single niggas who only want one thing from me' out in this world any day."
"I know alot of my single friends are so ready to settle down and do the whole family thing. They be crying on my shoulder and actually envy what I have with my spouse. And some of my single friends got it going on! Their own apt, good ass jobs, a nice car, beautiful kids (some are single moms), are physically gorgeous!, could have practically any man they want, etc., but they still don't have the true love they desire. I think as a person gets older it gets to the point that enough is enough and you just get tired of the bullshit. You want to share your life with someone. You want to grow old with someone. You want to have someone reliable who you can depend on besides yourself."
"I would not want to have to go through the dating thing in this day and age. In the beginning it is all cute, exciting and fun but then you start seeing niggas true colors and shit. You sit waiting by the phone wondering if they are gonna call. You got to deal with all the game they trying to come at you with. You are wondering if you are the ONLY one they are trying to get with or if Mary, Jane, and Sue are getting some of that as well. Then you got the whole sex thing. Having to protect yourself. Wondering where this person 'has been'. Dealing with their sexual history, etc. Not to say that I didn't have to deal with my husbands sexual history or that he didn't have to deal with mine, but once the commitment is formed (and you make each other get tested like 3878278273 million times) you get past that and now we are in the comfort zone. I don't have to worry about shit such as that. I can just be totally free with him and not worry about that type of stuff. And that takes a load off me."
"So all I am saying is that being married is not for everyone just like being single is not for everyone. Being single is not for me at all. Ya'll couldn't pay me to go back to being single. Too much headaches involved for me. And all the attention and things I would be getting from 'men' is just too temporary and unreal to me. I need a relationship with some substance. I need stability. I need to feel sincerely and truly loved by my significant other. And I get all that and more from being married. :)"
"I absolutely love being a wife!"
..........................................................
Indeed!
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